Sunday Story...Wonder If

Sunday Story…Wonder If

How would life be if we took a blank slate and wondered if…
We couldn’t fail
We could love without worry
We could be the person we really wanted to be
We could learn all the things we have always wanted to learn
We danced in the moonlight with the fireflies

What would happen? How would life be different for you if you just wonder if?
What if you took that wonder and put it into action?
Wonder if I just packed it all in and started on a walking tour of the country…the world?
Then what?

Wonder if we all just quit one day and started living out of out possibilities instead of our expectations.
Then what?
Wonder if I could get up tomorrow with no agenda, no to do list, no cat to feed, no children to herd, no job to go to.
Then what?

Looking back and wondering if is easy. As I look back on my life I can wonder if…
What might have happened if I married so and so instead of so and so
What would life had been had I gone to this school instead of that one
Had taken the other job
Hadn’t had the affair
Hadn’t yelled at my boss
Had gone to the Caribbean instead of Hawaii
These questions you have probably already played in your head. I play I wonder if with my past every once in a while. It is an interesting little fantasy game that whiles away a few minutes I may not be using at the moment. But really, it is pretty non-productive. Of course things would have been different if this or that had happened differently. Would my core be any different, though? Would who I am very deeply be any differently than who I am right now? I suspect not, at least not if your core values and ethics are strong and powerful.

When we play wonder if into the future the game shifts dramatically. I am going to operate out of my core values. I am going to stand tall in who I am, in whom I am being. That part is not going to change. But when I play wonder if…

Wonder if I can re-invent myself
Wonder if I can change the world
Wonder if I can be the parent I wanted to be
Wonder if I can be financially successful
Wonder if I can write the _______ (fill in the blank)
Wonder if I can create or invent _______ (fill in the blank)

The problem comes when we start answering the question…YES, of course I can.
Then the doubts and the other questions begin…
Then what?
What will I do then?
How can I do that?
I’m not this or that enough to get that done.
What will everyone think of me if I do______ (fill in the blank again)
What will my family say?
How will I live?
What about _______ (pick something)
These are the fears coming up and destroying your wonder if.
This is what happens when our blank slate isn’t really blank. If I truly have a “tabula rasa” none of those things should ever come up. I don’t know about you but even when I try to erase the slate there are still impressions left. This morning I erased my white board and started to write something new. What I erased was still there…I could still see it and could still read it without much trouble. I wiped it cleaner and it was still there, hidden but there.

The same thing happens with us. We wipe things out. We think we are “over” it. We think we have worked it out. We have erased the fears, the conditioning, the expectations but they may still be operating underneath. They may be lurking under the rocks in my subconscious. The belief systems I have put into place over the course of my life continue to operate whether I know it or not. This is a black board that is really hard to erase. It is going to take some bit of work to shift and change a lifetime of beliefs, fears, and expectations.

Is it work worth doing? Because this work is not going to be easy. This isn’t like changing your socks or doing the dishes. This is monumental life changing world shifting work. It is going to hurt. It is going to create some cracks in your armor.

But what if doing the work could open up the world of wonder if? What if all of a sudden you could love like you have never been hurt (even though you have been), dance like no one was watching (even though they are), work like you don’t need the money (even though you really do), sing like no one is listening (even though they may be), and live like its heaven on earth (even though it isn’t).

Would you do the work now? Would it be worth the struggle, the pain, and the hurt? If not, why not? What is going to be enough to have you do the work?

I’ll bet about now you are wondering but how am I going to do the work? I have no idea what he is talking about. I have no idea how to get started. I have no way to access this crazy work he is talking about.
Yes you do. If you are getting this you have a computer. If you have a computer you have a world at your fingertips. There are blogs, ebooks, forums and much more to get started on. There are people out there who can help you (including me).

Start wondering if
Do the work
Wonder if some more
Do more work
It’s never too late for you to be who you were meant to be.


Namaste
John
“Teaching Focus, Inspiring Transformation”
www.martialartsnevada.com

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